The Blessing of Journaling

When I was younger, someone once told me that it was really good to keep a journal and write down all the things God is speaking/showing to you. So... When I turned 13, I started journaling. I've never become very consistent in writing down absolutely everything that God has done or shown in me, but.. Last night I believe I have experienced the blessing of journaling. I pulled out two or three old journals (that were lost in the great black hole, that is.. my closet) that i forgot even existed. I always thought that looking back on previous journal entries, I would get mad at myself or frustrated at myself for how stupid i was.. For the mistakes I made and whatnot. Reading back, I noticed that I had the tendency to write down alot of the trials I experienced, even the failed ones. For some really lame (but cool) reason, it is now that I realize how much the Lord helped me overcome my evil desires for ungodly things and encouraged me with the promises that the Lord is in me, for me, and helping me at every moment (if i should ask.) It amazes me how intimately involved the Lord was in the very details of my life struggles. When I was discouraged, His word was like life to me, implanted in my heart... So if my mind might believe I'm not able to overcome, the word took authority in my heart and said- in Christ I have VICTORY. In Christ Jesus, I am enabled to do anything the Lord wills me to do.

7/13/07

Show me Your ways
Lead me in truth
I'm afraid of losing my sight of You
Show me Your ways
Lord, be my hope
How I'm so unworthy, so I may not boast

Deep in my heart theres a longing
For the Power and the touch of Your hand
And all I can do is cry out to You
As I'm sinking in this sand
With no power or might, I try to climb out
And I cry out for help, but my voice cannot shout
Show me Your ways, lead me in truth, please help me out
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I truly believe that the Lord showed me that while I was so weak spiritually, His strength pulled me further in my walk with Him. His strength is made perfect in weakness. And I was really, truly weak. Its only when I'm "feeling" strong enough, that I forget to call on Jesus. Its now that I realize, when I feel strong, it is Christ's supply pulling further in the race and closer to the finish line. Let he who thinks he stands, take heed, lest he falls. How true is this verse!! How can we think that while we stand, we stand alone? That while we have victories, we can take any credit? It is Christ's supply, His wisdom, His strength, His word, His way, and His blood that He shed that enables me to follow Him. And when I fall, how can I ever forget? That the same Christ (the unchangeable one) that helped me overcome, will also help me climb out of the pit?

Draw near to Me and I will draw near to you.
Lets draw near. =)