Some theories/convictions/opinions/revelations

It seems like I've really gotten into History alot as of lately... In school, I've always been the one with a "C" in history. I can't really say why. I guess in my brain i know it is factual, but when I read it on paper, its not real to me. You know what I mean? I must not let my mind imagine it.. so therefore, its kinda like a really boring story from a long, long time ago that doesn't really apply to me. I think my eyes are opening...

My friends invited me to go down to Va to stay with some really awesome people, go to church, and also explore the DC area and visit Mt.Vernon. I haven't really put much thought to our founding forefathers. All I ever said on the matter was that the ten commandments were used in a court house, so the people must have been godly. Little did I know that George Washington, our first president, was a mason. I can't tell you if his soul is in heaven or hell... But what I can tell you is my opinion on the matter. (The fact that I have an opinion on history is improvement to me lol) I always just assumed George Washington was a Christian. While some friends and I were at Mt.Vernon, we also stopped by the tomb where his body was kept. There was a guy there who talked a little, and answered questions if there were any... I asked him if history claims George Washington was a Christian. He answered saying that never once did Washington refer to God as Jesus Christ. He also said that up until a certain point, Washington faithfully attended a Christian non-denominational church. But after that point, he never attended that church since. I know the bible says that there is only one mediator between us and God, and that is Jesus. I got the impression that during that era, religion was a very personal thing. I do understand that... But I also strongly believe that when someone knows the true God, they cannot keep Him a secret.

For some really sad reason, God has now become a very relative term. God to some is Jesus Christ, and to others.. Is Allah. But a true God-fearing Christian will say that Jesus Christ is the one true God! Why could Washington never proclaim the name of Jesus? That just seems somewhat off to me. Then again, it is very masonish (not a word) to do that. Correct me if I'm wrong... But didn't people from different faiths (Muslim and Christian's alike) get together and talk about God with one another? Thats wack! Dude, your "god" is Allah, but mine is Jesus Christ! We have absolutely nothing in common in the faith area. Justttt messed up!

Okay now for the convicting things I have realized about my life-living.

Last night my family and I went to watch the movie Defiance. I do not in anyway promote that movie... If you have a filter that will filter out the filthy language, then I totally recommend it! My point is not to tell you to go see it unless you have a way of avoiding the crap.. But anyways, the rest that wasn't crap was really, really, really eye opening. I don't want to ruin it for any of you all... But to me, that movie made history real to me. It gave me a new perspective on the annihilation of the Jews during WWII. I guess I had never considered that there were infact Jews who fought back. The convicting thing to me, I guess,, would be taking for granted the things that some people have never had. Here us Americans are living freely, but hardly living. And the Jews during that time... Had lost their right to be alive. What if our right to be alive was taken away? How would I live, holding onto life? Will I be more serious about the Lord's work? Will I be more concerned with the still, small voice; the leading of the Holy Spirit telling me where to go, as He leads? Theres something to chew on.

Comment if you have thoughts!
-Kaitlin.

The Blessing of Journaling

When I was younger, someone once told me that it was really good to keep a journal and write down all the things God is speaking/showing to you. So... When I turned 13, I started journaling. I've never become very consistent in writing down absolutely everything that God has done or shown in me, but.. Last night I believe I have experienced the blessing of journaling. I pulled out two or three old journals (that were lost in the great black hole, that is.. my closet) that i forgot even existed. I always thought that looking back on previous journal entries, I would get mad at myself or frustrated at myself for how stupid i was.. For the mistakes I made and whatnot. Reading back, I noticed that I had the tendency to write down alot of the trials I experienced, even the failed ones. For some really lame (but cool) reason, it is now that I realize how much the Lord helped me overcome my evil desires for ungodly things and encouraged me with the promises that the Lord is in me, for me, and helping me at every moment (if i should ask.) It amazes me how intimately involved the Lord was in the very details of my life struggles. When I was discouraged, His word was like life to me, implanted in my heart... So if my mind might believe I'm not able to overcome, the word took authority in my heart and said- in Christ I have VICTORY. In Christ Jesus, I am enabled to do anything the Lord wills me to do.

7/13/07

Show me Your ways
Lead me in truth
I'm afraid of losing my sight of You
Show me Your ways
Lord, be my hope
How I'm so unworthy, so I may not boast

Deep in my heart theres a longing
For the Power and the touch of Your hand
And all I can do is cry out to You
As I'm sinking in this sand
With no power or might, I try to climb out
And I cry out for help, but my voice cannot shout
Show me Your ways, lead me in truth, please help me out
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I truly believe that the Lord showed me that while I was so weak spiritually, His strength pulled me further in my walk with Him. His strength is made perfect in weakness. And I was really, truly weak. Its only when I'm "feeling" strong enough, that I forget to call on Jesus. Its now that I realize, when I feel strong, it is Christ's supply pulling further in the race and closer to the finish line. Let he who thinks he stands, take heed, lest he falls. How true is this verse!! How can we think that while we stand, we stand alone? That while we have victories, we can take any credit? It is Christ's supply, His wisdom, His strength, His word, His way, and His blood that He shed that enables me to follow Him. And when I fall, how can I ever forget? That the same Christ (the unchangeable one) that helped me overcome, will also help me climb out of the pit?

Draw near to Me and I will draw near to you.
Lets draw near. =)

Thanks

Thank You Lord...

For

Your presence in my life
caring enough to know the number of tears i've cried
never giving up on me
being the perfect sacrifice
becoming my life
giving me nourishment from your living word
being merciful enough to draw near to me while i draw near to you
being my all in all

You are my life, my peace, my hope, and the joy of my life.

You make known to me that path of righteousness, and in it is fullness of life.

=) <3