"Kaitlin, I love you. You don't need to do it all, I will do it for you." Someone close to me told me God wanted them to tell me this. I had to step back and re-evaluate my life a week or so ago. In doing so, I realized that somehow the love I once had for Christ had faded. When I heard these words, they were like a jolt to my heart. Why do I always feel like I need to do it all for God? Why am I always thinking my efforts are good enough? I had lost my focus. I am nothing without Christ and all that He is through me is enough. How could I ever think that if I just "read more of my bible," or "prayed longer" that somehow I would be more spiritually intimate with my creator? I felt like such a fool. In my mind I had looked at Christ in the eyes of any worldly relationship. The relationship that "loves only when feeling loved." Hearing that Christ loves me made me re-evaluate everything. Its crazy. I know the Lord loves me. But somehow, within all the craziness of my life I had lost focus of how perfect His love is for me.
Had I lost my seriousness? Had I lost my passion? Just hearing that Christ desires to be close to me as well as me desiring to be close to Christ made my heart and my mind wander. For once in my life there is a song that describes perfectly the way I felt.
Mystery~ Phil WickhamHad I lost my seriousness? Had I lost my passion? Just hearing that Christ desires to be close to me as well as me desiring to be close to Christ made my heart and my mind wander. For once in my life there is a song that describes perfectly the way I felt.
Here in the Quiet speak to me now
My ears are open to
Your gentle sweet whispering
Break down the door, come inside
Shine down Your bright light
I need a lamp for my feet, I need a lamp for my feet
I want to hear the thunder of who You are
To be captured inside the wonder of who You are
I want to live I want to breathe
To search out Your heart and all of Your mysteries
You were the first and You’ll be the end
Time cannot hold You down
Why save a wretch like me?
No eye has seen, no ear has heard
No heart could fully know
All of Your mystery
Your glory burns in the stars
Shine down your light let it burn in my heart
Bring me to glory, bring me to you
Lord it’s your heart that I will hold onto
Your glory burns in the stars
Shine down Your light let me know who You are
Jesus, Your glory burns in the stars
Shine down Your light, let me see You, let me see You
3 comments:
I thought of you this morning... I heard a song by Phil Wickham on the radio.. I've never heard it before, but it started out "Come close, listen to the story.." and I thought, "Kaitlin!!" :) Awesome song and awesome reminder about the true love of Christ. :) Keep yourself in the love of Christ. :)
That was amazing!!
Grl4God
I think I know what you are saying however, the statement that spending more time in the Word or prayer to have greater intimacy with the Lord isn't a way to be more intimate with God causes me to question. I just read the story of the man whose son was possessed and who the disciples couldn't help. Jesus rebuked the disciples for "the littleness of their faith", which is why they could not cast it out. Then He said that "this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting." So that says to me that prayer, the Word and fasting will increase the knowledge of God, therefore will increase the intimacy that we have with God. Jesus had power because He was intimate with the Father and knew exactly what the Father was doing. Just something to consider.
I have seen some fall into the false idea that "it's just all God" to the point of totally not taking responsibility for their spiritual life and being lazy about spiritual stuff. It is true that is is all God, but we must ask, seek and knock. We must pursue, with ALL our heart, soul, and strength. That takes effort on our part!
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